My Asylum: 2月 2005

My Asylum

27 yrs of molecular and cells development... she still seeks for her true destiny.. Are the answers written in the moon?... The journey continues... Sometimes it feels no one understands. I don't even know why I do the things I do. When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul, Will you break down these walls and pull me through?

水曜日, 2月 23, 2005

What Z wants in a guy

What do women want? What do they really one in a guy??
Well some will probably want some stuffs like these...
On the surface:

Tall, not shorter than 175cm please...(you have to protect me ok)
Average looking? Although i really wish to have wu yan zu or bo yuan cong as my bf but i know its impossible cos their taste might not be so low. so i guess i shall jus stop dreaming about getting a shuai gege...even though looks does not last..but hey come on but at least i got it once in this life man..

ok here goes the average looking characteristics:

Deep set eyes (those look afar kind of eyes *.*)
Clean face (no pimples!! must have good hygene practise!)
Nice styled hair
Clean clean clean, please be clean!
Must be well groomed, wears reasonably fashionable outfits
Please DON'T smoke..i know you can cut the habit jus for me *smile
REALLY YOU MUST BE CLEAN! I CANT STAND DIRTY!
Healthy and quite sporty look =D
Average brown skin colour is ok, i don really like uncooked and overcooked meat colour.

On the inside:

Must be a real man! Tougher than me (when you make a promise please fullfill it)
Intelligent but not smart (don critise me for my mistake!)
Confident but not proud
Love me with all his heart, mind and soul..
Sociable but not overly (wait no time for me T.T)
Kind hearted (so as to neturalize my evilness), but not stupid...there a limit to how you can help others
Cannot be hot tempered! no gf/wife beaters!

Hopefully he is also quite rich! hohohoho then i can don work and enjoy and open show and earn money without investing!

*Poof~ its jus a dream man...Z realised when she woke up..

THE END

posted by zannzain @ 2:16 午前 0 comments

月曜日, 2月 21, 2005

Rambling disgressions

Our society seems to be going towards valuing academics of an individual rather than on their real ability and interests. This means that if you can get excellent academic results which leads you to nice high paying job when you grad or even before you grad...you will be fucking successful in life..

What happen after he/she become fucking successful? They will look for partner, have sex, make babies, form a fucking family and pretend to try to love one another when they hate each other for their existence? What the fuck! We seemed to be living for sake for others, we do want we want others want us to do. We tried ways and means to impress fucking people around..Why do we feel down when they are unhappy that we do not meet their expectation? somewhat like wat they called "peer pressure".

Society is an important element in an individual's life, it controls the emotions of this individual and even controls whether the person should live or die..Primay 6 kid jumped from building cos she fail the PSLE..fuck it! Man jumps from building cos he was announed bankrupt...fuck it!
The society is an evil nemesis... Everyone yarns for respects and authority; "society" decides it.
Deep down most "successful nobs" are - no skill, no intelligence, no self...

I don wanna be a successful nob, i know what i'm good at, i like to do what i'm good at.. But then again money makes the world go round! The most talented people succeeded cos their parents are fucking rich. So we see the rich are getting richer and the poor are getting fucking poorer

Talk about unfairness, was once told by a lecturer: "nothing is fair in this world". Ya, so "society" set it this way. If only the beings realised how foolished they have been behaving...Just for a moment, quiet down and listen...listen intensely...did you hear it? Yes, society is laughing. Laughing at the beings' plain stupidity..

Beings should unite and fuck "society" else it might jus continue to disintegrate the world and beings in it...look deep inside nob..wat do you see??
NOTHING!!! stupid nob

Looks is everything in this world and guess wat? "society" sets it!! you are pretty but incompetence, pple jus forgave you. you are ugly but have great ideas and works hard pple jus keep finding trouble for your ideas....there is no end..till you become beautiful..

Seriously who evers really look what is deep down inside? I never. When someone looks so disgusting would you even want to get to know more?? what you see one the surface is enough to blind you from seeing what is inside. Society is blinding our hearts..Probably the beings' intelligence is not enough to empower them to see with their hearts, think with their minds and hearts and decide for themselves...beings are like "babies"...innocence (another word for stupid)

When will my time be up soon? When will i see you again? When are you coming? Are you coming for me? Have you abandon me?

~Ramblings

posted by zannzain @ 3:18 午前 0 comments

月曜日, 2月 14, 2005

The Days when everything went wrong?

Stepped on a earing..it has a sharp end of about 2cm
poked rite into my foot
ouch!
Fall sick after eating too much chips and chocolates
ang pao money less than 200, and already spent liao ~.~
projects rushing in
lost touch to all mods ... hate to study...but hate to work too

Great things that happend:
Got a game console
Sold somemore stuffs on ebay
got malice mizer cd book =D
hmmm nothing else happened...

posted by zannzain @ 11:05 午後 0 comments

火曜日, 2月 08, 2005

Toy's story: Lamp Chop

Hi i'm lamp chop, guess many of you should have known me by now. Cos zann always go around showing me to people ^^.

Today is a boring Monday...zann is in school for her marketing research classes...she always felt bored cos the subject itself is boring and the prof is unable to make it any more interesting...but then its a complusory subject so she don have much choice. Anyway this is not about the stupid master...opps don tel her k?
Ok this is my story! ~LAmp ChOp~

I was bored cos nothing to do besides acting like a toy when someone came into the room...So i decide to take a look at Zann's stuffs..
I found this soundtrack (one of her precious possessions).

She will kill me if she see me touching this, but i really want to listen ... don understand why she like it so much ne~
Then recently she bought the 2004 version ost...crazy... isn't it the same?
she might say no, cos there's some diff in the lyrics and the flow of the movie..
watever...anyway where's the discman...
Hmmmm..is it in the cupboard?

Oh man the handle is so high how am i gonna reach for it?
Why cant she get a cupboard that has toy-friendly handle??
I cant open it....help!
5 hours later...

Phew!! i finally open the cupboard! with the help of boxes and stuffs
oh man there's tons of comic books in her cupboard... i shall step on the comics to reach to the top..heeheehee
Hey wait...wats this...hey i wanted to read this comic..
hmm maybe i should read it b4 i listen to the ost =D

heeeheee i like this guy!! lalalalaa
1 hour later....

that's a nice comic =D
hmmmm now wat? oh ya discman...eh i didnt see any discman..

1 hour later... -stretching on the bed-

argghhh no discman!! hmmm but wat's this on top??

hmmm a pouch...

Let's see wat's in it...maybe foods...sweets..or money???!!!

ohh its a mp3 player! Elson brand..hmmm tot now creative mp3 is more popular?
Oh man she got taste man, this elson mp3 got SD card slot, which she can use interchangably with digi cams, and in future hp!! but probably hp by then when its in singapore they might use xd instead though now in japan they are currently using SD cards
hehe see wat songs she have in it ^.^

lalala..oh think its the phantom of the opera!
oh she record it in her mp3 hehe

3 hours later....
haiz so sian think Zann is coming home already ba...

hmmmhmmmhmmm when is she coming back, nothing to do!!
i think i will take a nap while waiting for her ^^
I like this new covers cos its purple! Zann's fav colours!

While lamp chop slept...she forgot to keep something she took out from Zann's cupboard....

lamp chop's gonna get it man when Zann saw wat he did!!!

~THE END~

posted by zannzain @ 11:17 午後 0 comments

土曜日, 2月 05, 2005

Pictures says a thousand words...

Today finally finish my MR tEst....I dont wanna talk abt it ..got it?
anyway i jus went to orchard to vent my frustration
was passing by this shop in taka..

Wat the hell was the display person thinking? Isit showing the mannequin in its after birth situation?? or inviting a male mannequin to "have fun" with it?? I think the latter is more likely haha.
By the way there is a male mannequin beside it with its crotch area bulging out loh...kaoz..i wonder if its a joke....
I could not take the pic of that male mannequin cos my hp no space liao tt's why when take the female one only can take such a small damn pic..
but then a small picture is enough...
forgot the shop name its those high class shops...i still cant believe it
maybe should go back again take a larger pic and show you guys the bulging crotch male mannequin hahahaha
Then i think the person who did this display is probably desperate for SEX!
i should go around more often and take pics of such funni things haha

2 days ago while i was busy i had lots of stuffs i wanted to write but now that everything is over i cant find any any words to write..
Guess i'm a person who thinks more under stressful? or busy conditions. I'm usually more able to draw the pictures well when i'm stress...then if i do that i will fail my tests T.T wat the hell..
Damn bought a cd from HMV but did not notice the casing was spoilt..
have to go back to exchange so damn man...
(cant be i spoilt it loh! cos the other CD casing was ok loh and its above it!)
so sian i wanna cut my hair but then realise prices have raised for haircut due to new year...why do i always feel like cutting hair at a time like this??
Why do prices rises at times like this??
Why don i get rich at times like this??
Doshite? Doshite??

Hano KAra~~
Recentaly have been watching this japanese show "freezing point 2001"
I think the story line is quite cool cos its damn freaking complicated haha
and i like complicated plots alot!
This show is on sunday nite after the sorimachi police show
Let me give a brief intro

The story is about this woman, lets call her "Siao cha bor" (cos she vy emotional then keep blaming others) Ya, then she have this daughter "Liu li zi"
Well, one fine day siao char bor was commiting adultery with "Kay poh doctor" (he really kay poh in the whole show!). "Liu li zi" saw them always together then don play with her so she buay song and went to cmoplain, then she saw "kay poh doctor" kissing the "siao char bor" (he feeding her water loh...vy er xin...not romantic k!)
Anyway, so "Liu li zi" ran off cos the adulterous pair cant be borthered with her. Then later she kena killed (see anyhow run la!) and her body was left at river banks.
Her husband come in at this time, call him "Expressionless".
He knew about wat is going on between "siao char bor" & "kay poh doctor" [by the way, kay poh doc is also expressionless's colleague]
He damn angry that "siao char bor" let him wear vy vy vy green hat!
So when "siao char bor" told him she want a to adopt a daugter, he decide to seek revenge.
The person who killed "Liu li zi" - "the killer", was caught ..
Expressionless hear that "the killer" have a daughter..so he plot to adopt her and let his wife be happy...while keeping the wife in the dark regarding the baby gal's true identity..he wanted his wife to happily help "the killer" to birng up his daugher.. [so evil!! bring up the daughter of the killer who killed her daughter!!]
Anyway the "siao char bor" si beh happy loh! she named the baby gal "Yang zi"
So "yang zi" grew up in such a happy family
But then everything starts to fall when the mother found out wat "expressionless" had ploted...she began to hate "yang zi" [expressionless is damn cock he email his secret to someone then the kay poh doc saw it and forward to siao char bor!! kaoz! see the power of internet! and how kay poh the doc iS!!!]
Anyway "siao char bor" begin to do harmful things to yang zi like trying to push her down the stairs, tear her certificate, throw away her precious things, give her a present that is not hand-made (which send the whole family into a shock...0.0), etc.
Then worse thing is i forgot to say the family got a bro!! he looks abit like bo yuan cong from certain angle!! anyway call him "lovesick"
"Lovesick" like "yang zi" loh! he damn se lang man! look at "yang zi" while she sleeping, look at her neh neh pok when she was drenched!
But he knows "yang zi" is not his blood-related duaghter, so they can be tgt also..he damn happy when his father confirm that with him (se lang!)
So far in the eposides, he told his parents he like "yang zi" and want to protect her (more like want to have sex with her buhahaha...maybe he wanna see her do the spilt like wat the mannequin is doing above hahahaha)
Then the "siao char bor" even more bua song liao loh! then she obviously expressed the idea that she hate "yang zi"
But "yang zi" was trying to think that her mum was angry with her cos she mentioned "Liu li zi" in her school speech compeition.
In the last eposide, "yang zi" found out she is not the real daughter but she loves the family alot and she don believe they will abandon her..but she don know the real truth that her real father killed the "liu li zi"...haiz so it will get even more complicated.
I think "yang zi" will fall in love with the "lovesick"'s best friend, then "yang zi" got this vy vy good frend in sch who likes her bro "lovesick" so she bounce to fall out with "yang zi"
yeah yeah get more complicated!

posted by zannzain @ 11:20 午後 0 comments

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